Pag-Ibig ba ang hanap mo? by Diana Rose Gacila

Marami akong nabalitaan, nakilala, nakausap, iisa ang dahilan ng buhay, iisa lang ang hanap: Pag-ibig.

Isang ina na may limang anak, iniwan ng asawa; Anak na nalamang siya’y ampon lang; Rebeldeng anak na produkto ng pamilyang wasak; Kabataang nasira ang buhay dahil sa bisyo at drugs; Dalagang ina; Batang ama; Naging bakla o tomboy dahil sa masamang karanasan; Lalaking papalit palit ng ka-relasyon; Babaeng dumaan sa surgery, nagpa-opera, gumastos ng malaki para maging maganda; Breadwinner nakulong dahil sa pagnanakaw bunga ng kahirapan; Magulang na lumipad at namasukan sa ibang bansa; Panganay na anak na kahit anong trabaho ay nasubukan na; Matalinong anak na nagsisikap sa pag-aaral para makahakot ng medalya; Anak na umaasang mabuo ang pamilya kahit imposible pa. Ito’y marami sa mga taong hinayaan ng Diyos na makilala ko, makausap, at matulungan kahit sa panalangin. Kung iisipin, talaga namang ang ilan sa kanila ay masidhi ang napagdaanan at mga nasubukan. Sa totoo lang, isa lang naman ang dahilan ng bawat nilang kalagayan. Isa lang ang nais o hanap nila: Pag-ibig. Kaya naman sa ngalan ng pag-ibig lahat ay kayang subukan, lahat ay kayang pasukan. Lahat ay kayang gawin upang matanggap at mahalin. Ngunit kapag masyado kang mataas at may iniingatang kang pangalan mahirap aminin na ikaw din ay nangangailangan. Kaya nga madalas may mga tao tayong tinitiis o mga sitwasyon na pinipilit kayanin kahit mahirapan o masaktan pa tayo. Nakakapagod, hindi ba? Kinukulong tayo nito sa isang lugar na hindi natin gusto. Napipilitan tayong gawin ang mga bagay na hindi natin lubos maisip na magagawa natin. Ito ba ang sinasabing kalooban ng Diyos? Na ikaw ay mapahamak, masaktan, mahirapan, mapahiya, malugmok sa  kalungkutan, o magkasala? Marahil ang iba sa atin, hindi maiwasang magtampo o magalit sa Diyos. Nagdududa kung siya ba ay totoo at kung siya man ay totoo ang tanong ay, “Nasaan ka?” Tayo ay tao lamang. Dumadating talaga ang mga ganitong pagkakataon na ang ating lakas ay nasusubok. Ang Diyos nga mismo ay lubos na nalalaman na tayong mga tao ay limitado, mahina, at hindi sapat ang kakayahan. Katulad ng bulaklak na nalanta at hindi nagtagal ay namatay o nawala, ganito rin tayong mga tao. Kaya nga lubos niya tayong naiintindahan at walang hanggan ang kanyang pang-unawa sa atin.

Nakakatawang isipin dahil kahit gano natin piliting hanapin ang pag-ibig at pagtanggap mula sa ating pamilya, kaibigan, o kaagapay sa buhay, ay limitado lang ang kaya nilang ibigay. Sapagkat katulad mo rin sila, limitado, hindi ba? Hindi mo naman kayang magpagaling ng pusong sugatan o magbura ng pangit na karanasan. Lalong hindi mo kayang magbigay ng bagong buhay o sariwang panimula. May magandang balita! Hindi man natin o ng ating mga mahal sa buhay kayang ibigay ang mga ito, mayroon tayong matatakbuhan na higit pa sa mga nasabi ang kayang ipagkaloob! Tanggalin mo na ang pagdududa na hindi ka Niya mahal o hindi Siya interesado sa pinagdadaanan mo. Higit kanino pa man, nais Niyang makialam sa buhay mo, kung Siya ay hahayaan mo.

Kung may hihigit pa sa salitang perpekto, ganon ang pag-ibig na kayang ibigay sa atin ng Diyos. Ito ang pag-ibig na hindi mo na kailangan hanapin dahil hindi ka pa ipinapanganak, inaabangan ka na nito. Ito ang pag-ibig na hindi ka kailanman sasaktan. Ito ang pag-ibig na kahit saan, kahit kailan ay maaari mong asahan , takbuhan, at taguan. Ito ang pag-ibig na hindi marunong magkamali. Kaya kung sa tingin mo ang buhay mo ay magulo, sira, o bulok may dahilan ka pa din para magsaya. Sapagkat hindi man perpekto ang lahat sayo, maipagyayabang mo naman ang pagiging perpekto ng Diyos sa buhay mo.

May mga bagay na marahil ay hindi na posibleng maayos, o may mga tao tayong nasaktan o nakasakit sa atin na hindi na natin muling makikita, ngunit ang Diyos ay kaya tayong bigyan ng bagong buhay at simula. Kaya niyang ayusin ang lahat lahat sa atin. Kung pipiliin nating sa mga oras na ito ay tanggapin ang perpektong pag-ibig ng Diyos, babaguhin nito ang ating mga puso at isipan hanggang sa tayo ay mabuhay ng malaya mula sa masakit at pangit nakaraan. Kusang gagaling ang bawat sugat sa ating puso at ang pagpapatawad ay hindi magiging mahirap na gawin. Kalayaan ang nais ibigay ng Diyos sa atin sapagkat matagal na matagal na panahon ng binayaran ni Hesus sa pamamagitan ng krus ang kalayaan na pilit inaagaw ng nakaraan mo o ng kasalanan. Papayag ka bang habang buhay kang malugmok sa kasinungalingang wala ka ng pag-asa? O wala ng magandang bagay na mangyayari sayo? O wala ng magmamahal sayo? Nabasa mo ito ngayon para ipaabot sayong, ikaw ay mahalaga sa Diyos, ikaw ay lubos niyang minamahal. Ikaw ay nakikita niya at binibilang niya ang bawat mong luha. Naririnig niya ang bawat mong hinaing at handa ka niyang saklolohan kung lalapit ka sa kanya.

Naghahanap ka ng magmamahal sayo pero wala kang makita? Pwes, ngayong oras na ito, natagpuan mo na Siya! Simulan mo na ang magandang relasyon sa KANYA! J

Paano?

Tanggapin mo SIYA sa puso mo. Kilalanin mong siya ay Diyos at sa kanya nagmula ang lahat ng bagay. Sa pamamagitan ni Hesus na ibinigay Niya bilang kapalit ng ating kalayaan at kapatawaran sa kasalanan hilingin mong baguhin niya ang puso mo at bigyan ka niya ng bagong buhay at simula.

Kung sasabihin mo ito sa kanya, makakaramdam ka ng naguumapaw na kaligayahan at gagaan ang kabigatan  na nasa puso mo. Subukan mo!

…………….Ayos di ba? :D

Diana Rose Gacila

Music and ME by Diana Rose Gacila

@ Light TV's Solemn Session
Diana Rose Gacila 

It was my parents who discovered that I can sing. My mom have shared me my cute story when i was 3 months old and my pop was singing me to sleep. While he is singing me a lullaby they were surprised when I began to sing long "ooohh!!!" with just one note.lol That was me! Then my pop stopped singing and they just listened to me instead (Oh mom and pop! It's just one note! Are you sure you did listen?). Regretful about my parents not having a video camera that time.haha! But it's fine! So there, when I reached my 3rd year, my parents decided to buy a little cassette and a microphone since my brother, sister and myself is in love with music. My voice coach who happened to be my Mom (wow! as if my mom is a professional singer!lol) recorded my voice while singing my favorite kid's songs and other Christian song. Remembering it makes me laugh, really. (I got a copy with me! I'm sure you'll laugh once you hear it coz my closest friends laughed as if there's no tomorrow when they've heard of it!) A three (3) year old kid sings as if she understands the lyrics of the song!hah! <3

The first time I ever did a song number was when I was 5 years old, that was in our church in Jesus Is Lord Church, Baliwag Chapter. And the song goes like this: “Love na love ako ni Jesus; Mahal niya akong tunay; Lagi niya ‘kong iniingatan, sa pagtulog ko Siya’y kasama; nagbabantay ‘twina sa aking buhay.” I wont forget this song because it’s my first love song offered to the Lord. From then on, I am often being assigned to do a solo number in the church. I used to sing songs from the album of Musikatha and Papuri. I also have the album of Joy Fabillar, Sharon (not Megastar), and Joni Villanueva. Both in church and in school I was being tapped to do a special number or join singing contests. I believe that joining contests can help an aspiring singer like me not just in enhancing skill but even in developing character. I am thankful for the experience of winning and losing contests for it helped me have the right attitude and response toward victory or defeat. 

Here are some of the singing contest I've joined back when I was still a student. I can still remember the others but these four are the unforgettable ones:

Elementary, Grade 6
From 20+ elementary students representing their school, I won the 3rd Place! :)

Piece: Ikaw by Sharon Cuneta
Award/Prize: P300 (haha! I can still remember I grabbed my sister and brother right after the contest in Mc Donalds--my treat!lol)

1st Year High School
Linggo ng Wika, Grand Champ
Piece: Ulan by Regine Velasquez
Award: Medal

1st Year High School (Bulacan Private School Association)

20+ Private School Representatives: Fail to win :'(
Piece: Ngayon by (Ooh!I forgot)

2nd Year High School (Bulacan Privare School Association)-- Sabak Ulit

20+ Private School Representatives: 5th Place (yey!)
Piece: Ikaw by Sharon
Award: Medal

UE Pop Idol

1st Year College

Among 100+ college musikeros : I made it to Top 10 and be one of the Grandfinalists
Piece: It's all coming back by Celine Dion
Award: Gift pack from Studio 23 and other stuff

Try watching this: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VoAlB2nCwoc
(Sorry hindi masyado maganda ang resolution.ehehe! :) )

My passion for music helped me gain confidence. I can say that music became the avenue for me to show who I really am. It also became an instrument for me to express my love for God, on and offstage. Most importantly, music has revealed God’s calling in my life. That's why having realized that I was blessed of a beautiful gift (well, everyone has their own God-given gifts), I should be a good steward of it. I' promise to take good care of it and develop it more by the help of God. Above all, to use it and everything that I have for the glory of God alone! :)

Colossians 1:16

For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. Acts 17:28 'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.' Romans 11:36   For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be the glory forever! Amen. Praise the Lord! <3

When I Heard HIM Calling Me by Diana Rose Gacila

I am the youngest in the family. My Mom, though a Roman  Catholic submitted herself to my father who is a Born-again Christian, the reason why me and my family by God's grace come to know Jesus Christ. My brother Dibenson and sister Divine were both active in Children’s Ministry in our church then. I can still remember the first time they had me join Sunday School in our church, I was filled with excitement knowing that in there, we will sing happy songs, pray, read the bible, color famous bible character’s faces, and play! I don’t understand but all I know, in my young age, I’m very interested to talk about Jesus Christ and I want to know him more.

I grew up with godly people, indeed a life under God's dominion. And he doesn’t want me to just love Him, he wanted me to serve Him as well. I was 9 years old when my sister Divine and I joined Elyondoulos (formerly Tambourine Ministry) where I was given the chance to develop my dancing skill. I was also 9 years old when I first joined JIL Children’s camp at Norzagaray, Bulacan which paved the way for me to be used in Children's Ministry for God's glory. I was excited then because I will be joining Little Ms. Camper. But the second time I joined the camp, year 2001, was one of the most unforgettable events in my life. I can still remember how serious I was when listening to every session and how heavenly music touched my heart every time we sing and dance together to worship the Lord. The last day of the camp is the most awaited part not just because of the victory proclamation but also because of commissioning service. I was so surprised when I saw Rev. Eddie Villanueva, Jesus Is Lord Worldwide-Executive Director, in the site. I knew that he will be the one to anoint us with oil. When Rev. Eddie finished his preaching, teachers helped us to line up and get ready for the anointing session. We were about 1500 (or almost...I can't remember to be honest!hehe) delegates to be anointed. When the music began to play, I felt the strong presence of God embracing me. There was  an unexplained feeling of joy in my heart that made me cry a lot, I knew it was God’s Spirit and so I just let it flow and overwhelm me. When it is I to be anointed, the man of God placed his hand upon me, uttered a word of love from the Lord and a declaration of my life’s victory. Then I heard the Lord spoke through my heart, saying he want me to serve him all my life; that I belong to Him; that He has chosen me to be his very own. Though I am just grade 5 then, just a little earthling, I surrendered him my heart and responded to his call. I have a hope that his presence will always be with me and that his favor shall look after me as I respond to his call and obey his will. At an early age, he opened my eyes to see his beauty and made my heart hunger and thirst for more of him. And I am blessed and humbled that God have made himself known to an ordinary person like me. What a privilege to serve this wonderful God and be called as His very own!

Hey! Check this out!

Here are some pics of my younger years... Of service.

My First Ministry: Elyondoulos
(Our Dream Church, JIL Baliuag was under construction, that's why Sunday Services were held at the school which is also in progress!)

Looking for me? I'm the beautiful kid (on the left facing the screen. lol ) next to the first kid on the line. <3

Children's Ministry
I'm so Bibo! I know right?lol I'm always placed at the center! ^o^


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At Norzagaray Bulacan--3 day camp!
Please don't laugh! I look boyish here!:D

Surprise!I'm a grown up here! <3
Yes! If you're a tambourine dancer during that time (year 2000?), wearing gown is super in! :)

3rd from the left! :-o
(The woman at my right is my beautiful sister Divine)

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,  before you were born I set you apart;
    I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5

Maybe, not as a prophet. Maybe not like my calling or someone else's. But when God calls, don't be afraid to answer. He will surely guide you and make your path straight! God Himself will protect his calling in your life! You just need to trust and obey him for there is blessing in obedience. Deut 28. Amen.




I <3 Jesus!